About me

Updated (minor corrections) 03/27/2025

My name is Dr. Theodore (Ted) J. St. John.

I am a retired U. S. Naval Officer (Commander, O5). Over a 30-year naval career I served as a nuclear submarine officer, a licensed senior reactor operator, Science Advisor and head of science and research at the Naval Dosimetry Center in Bethesda MD, head of radiation physics and radiology department at Naval Medical Center Portsmouth VA, second in command of the Naval Medical Research Unit in San Antonio, TX, and clinical radiation therapy medical physicist at Naval Medical Center San Diego, CA.

I have a dual BS in physics and electrical engineering from Jacksonville University, Jacksonville FL and Florida Institute of Technology in Melbourne FL, an MS in physics from the University of Louisiana at Lafayette, an MA in national security and strategic studies from the Naval War College in Newport RI, and a Ph. D. in nuclear and radiological engineering (specialty in medical physics) from the University of Florida, Gainesville FL. I enrolled (in Fall II term 2021) as a graduate student in Theology with the Catholic Distance University (CDU). I chose the Catholic school because I was baptized as a Catholic. However, I quit going to church regularly when I started learning science, so at the age of 61, I decided it was time I learn about Theology. Besides, I had my VA educational benefits (post-9/11 GI bill) and didn’t want that to go to waste.

The most important lesson I learned in Theology was that “God is truth itself.” It is actually written like that in the Catechism of the Catholic Church (CCC-215). To me, a person who could never bring himself to believe in or even accept the idea of God as a person, that means that “truth itself” is the real point of religion and “God” is just the name. Giving it a name allows people to relate to the infinite. When I learned that “God is truth itself” I had an epiphany. If I believe in truth itself, which is impossible for me not to, then I believe in God. That does not mean that I have become religious. But everything I read in the Bible began to make sense because I could interpret what I read in the spiritual sense. Until then, I had turned away from religion because everyone I knew who were religious interpreted it in the literal sense.  

I only completed about two thirds of the curriculum though. I stopped attending in early 2023 after I found out my oldest son, Scott who was only 37, had cancer. He was being given conventional treatments and I was very familiar with radiation therapy. I started studying unconventional treatments under the heading of alternative medicine. I prayed for him and asked everyone I knew to pray as well. At the same time, I knew in my heart, and the holomorphic process model supports it, that if his body died, the spiritual aspect of life is self-organizing and self-sustaining. So, I was very confident and comfortable knowing that the soul or core of his mind (his “knowing-mind” as opposed to his “thinking-mind”) would survive the death of his body. Still, it was very sad when he finally died on August 17, 2024.

I have read and written a lot about the power of the mind to heal, and I can’t deny what I came to understand about it. I try not to use the word “believe” and I am always willing to face the truth head-on. But I refuse to believe that a loving God would have just ignored our prayers. It was painful, but I realized (you could say that God told me) that the power to heal has to do with spiritual maturity (how much unbiased truth has been taken into one’s soul or “knowing-mind”). It has to develop over time, probably many lifetimes, and apparently we (my family) are not yet mature enough to use it. I had a Catholic Priest come to his home and administer the Sacrament of Anointing of the sick, but Scott’s body was already in the final phase of dying. No miracles for us that day. Scott was unconscious so the priest also gave him his last rites. In retrospect, I wish I had tried harder to find other faith healers.

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I experienced the holomorphic process in 1992, when I had an out-of-body experience. While my body remained where it was and as it was, “I,” my mind, seemed to separate and project out into the outer reaches of the universe as a disembodied point of consciousness. For a moment, all I saw was absolute darkness, but the moment I realized I was awake, aware, and wondering what was happening, I “felt” (I had the feeling) that I was turning or being turned around. Then I saw (I envisioned) a bright halo that appeared to be surrounding a sphere. The sphere actually appeared to be the source of the light, but it also appeared to be covered with an opaque substance, like a cloud. As I faced directly toward the vision, there was a moment of timelessness and then I felt the need to know the truth. The instant I felt that need, a flash of light seemed to launch from the halo and soar through space toward me. The motion of the flash reinitiated the perception of time, and I knew that time itself is nothing more than the “feeling” and experience that we get when we see or experience motion, even if the experience is just intellectual.

It was a eureka moment that inspired me to understand, explain and prove, first, that everything is light, that we are “Beings of light” and second, that our bodies are just vehicles that allow us to transform into consciousness. At the time (I was 32 years old) I already had a BS degree in physics, so I went back to school and got a master’s in physics in hopes that I would bring this newfound wisdom to light.  I was surprised to learn that I hadn’t discovered anything new. They already knew it (“they” being the few people who understood quantum physics, like Fritjof Capra who wrote The Tao of Physics). But most professional physicists and professors didn’t seem to interpret it the way Capra did. To them, the particle/wave duality meant that everything, including light, is physical. It’s called the substance or material philosophy. So rather than “Beings of light”, they say we are made up of material units whose physical state is related to  energy.

Although we covered Classical Mechanics, Wave Mechanics, Statistical Mechanics and Quantum Mechanics, we barely touched on Relativity theory. And Quantum Field Theory (QFT) was only briefly mentioned. I wanted to know more but for various reasons, not the least of which was that the math was getting too hard, I got my Ph. D. in Medical Physics instead of something like QFT, Condensed Matter physics or Cosmology. The practical reason was that the Navy would pay for my graduate school, and because I was a Radiation Health Officer, I had to choose a degree that fit the needs of the navy, and Medical Physics was it.

For the next 16 years, while I continued to serve as a naval officer, I continued contemplating foundational physics. It seemed like there was something about the way that fundamental concepts “set us up” and practically forced the physical substance interpretation. And it spreads from the physics classrooms and labs into the world of everyday perception. That is where our perception has become our reality.

In 2005, I had another eureka moment about the nature of time. I actually remembered what I had felt during my OBE or it came back to me (see my article in Quest magazine, Timeless Epiphany) that units of measurement are what set us up (see The Nature of Time and Spacetime). The bottom line is that time doesn’t “move” like we are taught to think; instead, we move through space and the holomorphic process. I remembered that motion creates the perception of time. Then, nearly 10 years later, I finally came up with a model (see The Unity of Space and Time) that I thought would blow the lid off of the big bang theory. But it was rejected for publication by a couple of journals. So I tried to simplify it or at least break it up into sections. The first section describes The Space-Time-Motion (STM) model. The next section was an explanation of time, called A Practical Perspective: It’s about time.

Finally, I was contacted by an editor from Archives of Physics Research who had read some of my work (posted at https://vixra.org/author/theodore_j_st_john ) and was invited to publish in their open-access journal. So I gathered up everything I had learned and written and wrote The Holomorphic Process: Understanding the Holographic Nature of Reality as a Metamorphic Process. It was published in the Autumn 2018 and can be downloaded from (https://www.scholarsresearchlibrary.com/archive/apr-volume-9-issue-2-year-2018.html ).

The purpose of this blog is just to put the information out there for your consideration, discussion and use. Feel free to take whatever you like. You don’t need my permission, but if you cite me and my work, I would appreciate the credit and perhaps some feedback. Without feedback, I don’t feel that my work is useful to others or appreciated as much as my wife appreciates it when I stop working on it. I am happy either way. The more research I do, the more I find that my insights are already out there in different subspecialties, but there seems to be gaps between them that prevent them (the people working in those areas) from seeing the big picture. My goal is to bring them together and show that they are all in harmony with and participating in the same process – obviously, the holomorphic process.